I feel very much dejected and disappointed.
Everyone makes mistakes, do stupid unforgivable and unacceptable things from time to time.
Everyone expects understanding, but how much can it be given?
Everyone gives advices but doesn't use it on them or it just does not and will not work in their situation.
Everyone expects their advices to be heed, but have it ever cross your mind that it might work on your problem(s) with who ever it may concern but not in that person's case?
People live different lives. Not everyone live a life of the vibrant and comfort. Life is never fair.
I lost my motive in life or rather, its very stagnant now. Living in a minefield isn't want I want my life to be placed.
It's taking a toll on me.
There are things I want to say, stuff I want to do as a teenager. But I can't.
Who don't want to have the time of their life; right now as a teenager? But the family I live in does not allow me to.
The rules and principles I live with still exists till now. But I'm at a very breaking point.
From time to time, I'll want to run away, rebel or do something really unforgivable and make them so mad- but the ultimate goal is to do something that I'll be happy about, something that makes me forget everything and take off that invisible stress and pressure I coop within.
I very much miss my friends. But, I know I can't cross that wall I built between us. Its so silly and stupid.
Perhaps these are all just regrets I have to live with.
People from all walks of life brings a point of learning into life.
I can't blame.