Sometimes, I just wish that my family is just some cool family.
A little well-off yet, my parents are cool.
So that I can party occasionally, drink till I couldn't get home & they're fine with it.
But I know, mine ain't. And I'm sick of all these lies I have to crave out just to have my little own fun with my friends.
I just want to live my life like how a teenage girl should have, all the fun and nights.
The days are too young to live now. And I still don't have a exciting story to share with my kids in the future.
Now my life's like this, I won't want my kids life to be like what I live for the years before I'm married.
I want them to be as close to me like I'm their best friend, telling me everything.
I'll be fine if they have a gf/bf, even if they're gay, I accept cause I accept them for who they are.
Allow them to bring their friends over to have sleepovers, drinking parties.
Bring them to clubs and pubs when they're legal.
Yes, I don't want them to do anything behind my back.
I hope I'll be that close to them that even if they lose their virginity, they'll tell me.
Then again, I'll still tell them it's not a good thing to do.
I'll be that friend that wakes up at their midnight call and bring them back home when they're dead drunk.
I hope that they'll be a close knitted siblings that they can trust each other when they need someone to back them up.
I hope that they know that no matter how bad matters are I'll be there for them.
& they, will be the best well behaved, happiest children around.
I don't want them to be me when its their time.
I want them to be who they deserve to be, carefree & happy.
I guess, I'm going to transfer all the stuff that I wish I have now to them.
Seeing them happy in getting all they deserve is the best I could ever give & get.