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Monday, March 29, 2010; 12:07 AM

I thought I'm ready, I gave you the heads.

But now, I realise, I'm not at all ready.

This, IS miserable.

Saturday, March 27, 2010; 11:50 PM

Sometimes, I just wish that my family is just some cool family.

A little well-off yet, my parents are cool.

So that I can party occasionally, drink till I couldn't get home & they're fine with it.

But I know, mine ain't. And I'm sick of all these lies I have to crave out just to have my little own fun with my friends.

I just want to live my life like how a teenage girl should have, all the fun and nights.

The days are too young to live now. And I still don't have a exciting story to share with my kids in the future.

Now my life's like this, I won't want my kids life to be like what I live for the years before I'm married.

I want them to be as close to me like I'm their best friend, telling me everything.

I'll be fine if they have a gf/bf, even if they're gay, I accept cause I accept them for who they are.

Allow them to bring their friends over to have sleepovers, drinking parties.

Bring them to clubs and pubs when they're legal.

Yes, I don't want them to do anything behind my back.

I hope I'll be that close to them that even if they lose their virginity, they'll tell me.

Then again, I'll still tell them it's not a good thing to do.

I'll be that friend that wakes up at their midnight call and bring them back home when they're dead drunk.

I hope that they'll be a close knitted siblings that they can trust each other when they need someone to back them up.

I hope that they know that no matter how bad matters are I'll be there for them.

& they, will be the best well behaved, happiest children around.

I don't want them to be me when its their time.

I want them to be who they deserve to be, carefree & happy.

I guess, I'm going to transfer all the stuff that I wish I have now to them.

Seeing them happy in getting all they deserve is the best I could ever give & get.

Thursday, March 25, 2010; 9:55 PM

Yes people, I've cut my FRINGE.

It was messy(refer to post below) and I didn't like the cut, so this time, I cut it myself.

Anyways, I felt lousy after the chalet but after talking online, I felt a little better.

& I'm meeting Marcus and maybe Deyang tmr. Hoho, exciting, DESIGN SHOW!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010; 7:36 AM

Okay, off to CHALET!

Totally sound like 3 days or something, it's actually just ONE day. haha

Okay, byebye loves (:

Monday, March 22, 2010; 12:37 AM

So, I'm the back up plan now.

What happens to Friends Don't Let Friends Dial?

Oh wait, I doubt you heard of it before.

Sunday, March 21, 2010; 12:23 AM

I'm finally free, well, KINDA.

Not feeling any excitement, well, its kinda impossible when the people close to you are changing to become someone else. How heartbreaking?

Well, I guess, I'm suppose to embrace the change.

Everyone changes; environment changes, weather changes, fashion changes, technology changes, design changes. Everything that have a life or not changes constantly.

We, are part of it and we're to embrace it.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010; 2:56 AM

I'm a sensitive person.

I can't help it but, it's inborn.

But I know, I have to learn to be a little less sensitive.

Cause being a little less sensitive, I'll be a little happier.

Monday, March 15, 2010; 5:16 AM

I'VE

NEVER

FELT

FUCKED

WITH

WORK

EVER

BEFORE

Sunday, March 14, 2010; 2:47 AM

I realise why I don't like to explain so much.

There's no need for that, for I'm constantly in my own bubble.

I think differently, I look at things differently, I handle stuff differently.

It affects me much that I'm not like the others.

I'm constantly having my own reasons but it appear to sound ridiculous.

Maybe cause that's just me. A side of me that I don't like, but a side that I'm glad I have.

Cause if I didn't have that, I won't be where I am today.

So fuck explanation, fuck it.

Monday, March 8, 2010; 3:49 AM

I miss those nights in Japan.

Where we get wasted every night, downing bottles after bottles of alcohol.

Partying in the hotel room like we own the hotel.

Wake up the next day and head out without hangover and enjoy the day.

And the night starts over the same way again.

I love how I get fucking wasted, its then I forget every single thing.

Lets get wasted again, at somewhere foreign.

Sunday, March 7, 2010; 11:44 PM

Every night, before I sleep, the question I ask myself isn't how my day is or how bad it is.

But to ask myself, what should I wear the next day.

Then go to sleep. Why sum up a day when you can't do anything much to change it.

Saturday, March 6, 2010; 2:52 AM

Okay, so weekends here.

I've been thinking much these days. The people around me makes me think a lot, negatives and the positives.

But, I realise, I'm actually quite dumb. Not the stupid kind but just dumb. And a little bimbo, just a very little bit. Lijin still wins in being a bimbo. hor? haha.

Anyways, I looked silly boarding the bus today cause that bimbo was trying to get a can of red bull out of the plastic and my bus was already there. And I made a small run for it.

So usually, I'll just head to the back of the bus without looking about cause I know it's quite rare to bump into people I know on that bus.

But today, I think I got judged by the people on the bus?

I tapped my card, intending to do the same routine but then, before I could walk pass the first few rows, I heard my name.

2 of my secondary school friend were on that bus. And I think it quite common that people go 'ehhhhh~Hi!' when you bump into people on the streets. I did that on the bus. I bet those that are not on the earpiece can totally hear my exclamation.

So, that wasn't enough, behind me, it was Javin. Like omg. Yea, only he'll take that bus so the highest possibility was just him. But, like, I'm in the middle and woh, behind poly classmate, in front secondary schoolmate. Mind you, I was facing on side of the bus, not facing the front.

Come on, use your imagination.

After all these elaboration, I just want to say, my day was happening.

In fact, the previous sentence was all I can blog out today but I feel the need to do elaborate like how I'm doing this explanation.

Friday, March 5, 2010; 1:41 AM

Jin, jiayou!!!!

I fear when weekends reaches without me taking note.

I didn't know this week pass so fast.

And my fear for weekend? I'll slack through it.

With that much of a work load, how to score well for both?

And this two modules, Mayguss Wee, you better score. Or else, just go and die.

Yea, I'm that critical and evil to myself.

Working so hard but sometimes, I don't score. Wtf right, I know. Cause everyone been through it.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010; 11:44 PM

i REGRET trimming my hair ):

it was trimmed like maybe a week ago, but, it's not looking any better.

In fact the cut before trimming was way nicer. How?

Hur.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010; 12:15 AM

I can't respond funnily to people's funny comment.

I can't react well to weird situation.

I can't interact well with strangers, or friends.

I think, I'm just weird.

Maybe, I'm just that way and people don't know that I'm like that.

Plus, I am a timid girl.

Okay, back to work.

& M's sick ):

Monday, March 1, 2010; 12:20 AM

So, the stress is building up. How good.

Construction drawing's an ass. Like, I seriously need help in clearing up some mess. I don't know if the structuring works. He better tell me everything tmr.

And what's another best thing? PIMPLES. MY GOD.

And another best thing? I'm falling SICK.