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Saturday, January 2, 2010; 12:47 AM

When the clock strike 00:00 hours, 2010 was invited into this era, and 2009 ended.

I was home, feeling cheated, but I was glad that it happened cause I felt really sick.
I went to sleep and msges came in one after one, and Syara's phone call came. In disbelieving that I'm sleeping in 2010.
But, for years, I never had plans at all for New Year's Eve; partly cause no one date me ): Put that aside..
Reflecting for 2009 for me is tiring.
I ushered 2009 with a love & ushered 2010 without a love.
In 2009, I made the biggest mistake. Thinking that I'm in love with someone.
But the truth sets in and apparently, the truth was, he's not.
And the truth took away everything.
What a depressing year.
But, whatever to that. I've done my best.
To you: You're the one I thought will be there, no matter what becomes of us. But, my judgement was wrong. You aren't, and you won't be. In 2009, I lost you as a true friend cause of my honesty. To you, whatever I did/said was never a honesty, but I believe, one day, you'll understand. And this time, I'll really say goodbye. No point salvaging the friendship. Cause all that you said turns out to be a mind game for me. I tried hard after that talk we had on msn, you said you want us to be friends again, talk again. I tried, but I got thrown down hardly. I don't know how to explain all these to you but this time you really turned your back towards me. But, I feel better like this cause I'm done with feeling apologetic. Afterall, you can't feel all that I felt & feeling and you won't understand. Goodbye.

I still like the fact that I was honest and I believe I grew up, in someways. And I hope it wont stop.
And with that mistake, I found back a friend.
Misunderstandings leads to many unwanted results.
Couldn't understand why she did those that she did. I didn't take the initiative to know her better. But I'm glad I do now. Vanessa HYX (:
I realise, those that I need isn't those whom are new. They are those that were with me when I first started poly. Those were the days where I was truly happy with every single thing.
Tan Lijin, Syarafina Kamsani, Vanessa HYX, Amber Teo, Edwin Seet, Nicholas Lim, Gaen Koh.
I'm selfish, but I'm keeping my list to them.
They were the ones that stood by, willing to take in my rants, giving suggestions, doing whatever they can to just make me happy, and with them, I am happy.
I hope the list expands (:
Also, my secondary school friends. They need not be mentioned but knowing that they are there, it's a comfort. & spending my first day of 2010 with them was just totally awesome (:

There's much left unsaid. But what for blogged everything out right? Its good to keep some to myself (:
I have no new year resolutions yet. I'll find them slowly.
But right, I'm glad that I've found a EC before 2010 ends. Hahahahaha, thats random.

Right people, goodnight!
I just have 2 resolution in mind.
1. Lose that weight. I want to be like 45-48kg. Super near but, its not easy. Say goodbye-fats.
2. Long, nice hair. A bit excited. I wonder how will I look like with bang-long hair. Don't try photoshopping okay.