Wednesday, October 29, 2008; 11:31 PM
Sleep NOW!
Chiong work later,early in the morning,no people to disturb.
Okay,bye.
Monday, October 27, 2008; 11:01 PM
I'm going crazy.
I love both of my concepts but I got different feedbacks.HOW!?
And,citation really got me STUCK!
I haven do my essays,OMG.
Me shall sleep early today.
I M Y (:
Sunday, October 26, 2008; 6:55 PM
ComDi ComDi ComDi...
I'm beginning to love it.
Funny concepts,its so fun.
Own photography,awesomest.hahaahaha.
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~
Thursday, October 23, 2008; 10:32 PM
I don't feel like talking anymore.
No one replies,no one cares,no one see,no one hear.
What for?
*Ignores*
Don't ask me what's wrong with me.
It's freaking clear what's wrong with me.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008; 12:04 AM
Everything's in my Livejournal (:
For this sem,I'll keep ideas to myself,I mean work though.
I want to be original for individual assignment.
I don't want to be discourage cause I share.
I rather improve myself with comments and critique.
I'll consult the lecturer more often.
Determined to do better this sem.
I'll do better than the usual me. (:
Sunday, October 19, 2008; 9:58 PM
Blog's up (:
Spent days doing it.
2nd sem's starting tmr (:
Mixed emotions.
I don't know what to expect.
We'll see how it come and go (:
My whole desktop is messy! Cramp with stuff.haha.
Goodnight.
-@2358
I'm suppose to be sleeping by now,but I'm still awake.
I'm on the bed with my laptop but not asleep.
Cordelia is making me super duper jealous and she's still making me jealous.
4th Nov, Korean Festival Concert. IDIOT!
Of all dates,3rd week of block,cant slack. So I'm not going.
2pm,Kim Jong Wook,JEWELRY. and more.TSK!
Thank goodness it's not other group,I'LL DIE.
Dead jealous.
Friday, October 17, 2008; 10:53 PM
Art exhibition '08 isn't really a blast.
IDK,maybe it's no longer our year our works.
And it's of smaller scale this year, apparently, the other subjects took part too.
So,it wasn't that fab but the grads are FAB.hahahaha.
Great laugh,great talks,great people.
Oh,the runway walk show is hilarious like woah..haha.
The dance performance put up was really bad. I looked to my right (clssmates),all same expression :O
Marcus came late,but glad he came (:
Huda,still the same,funky.
Zal, still having the i-have-no-image thingy,she just do funny face when she feels like it.
Yvonne, same,no diff.
HuiYun, won't have any difference.I see her in TDS everyday,RHD.haha.
Hazel,still quiet,but got bf leh.haha
Hairul, no difference,fatter :x
Jamal, hair long like don't know what,GO CUT LA BOY.
Deyang, haha, gentleman now. Thinner.
Theon, still the same la..haha. Walking home with him is forever best.haha
Cordelia, can I not say....SHE'S TALLER THAN ME NOW AND SHE'S MOCKING ME.WTH.
Me, I got a new nickname. Chinadoll.......Doll..china,damn.
I still love 4e3.
Still the awesomest bunch,weird people.haha. Not forgetting to mention,horny. The guys I mean.haha
Chilled at Sunplaza KFC.
Alighted at Yishun and walk home with theon (:
Long chats,usual topic. Agreed to meet up again.
I rmb when we parted from Zal,since she's taking the bus,we're walking.
He went:" Hi darling."
I replied:" Huh? What sia."
He replied:" Wahlau,I say 'Hi darling,you must reply Hi darling.' too right."
Hahahaha, love them really really much.
Friends that I'm having now,are really awesome people. Really really awesome (:
Monday, October 13, 2008; 10:23 PM
Ask and asked.
You know but you never seem to know what I feel inside.
Sorries can be said but it cannot undo what's done.
It have been a torment till now.
I just words i can't put across to you.
Seeing you,talking to you.
It makes things tough and worst.
Everytime I say to give up,to forget and every other thing,it's just say.
It's tough to be done.
When I thought I've found someone to rely on,I gave up.
Thats the only way out cause I know,I must.
I don't want to be stupid,to be silly to keep it going.
Knowing that things have change.
So silently yet so brutal.
Reality is never nice.
By the time you see this,it's the time I've already learnt to really let go.
好想回到過去，回到剛開始的時后。
是不可能的吧。
因為我知道，不可能。
而你一句都沒說，是我儍吧。
bye.
Sunday, October 12, 2008; 10:06 PM
I'm beginning to detest my life,again.
It have always been like this,it's always me.
Always.
Love home? I detest mine.
Saturday, October 11, 2008; 4:58 PM
Samsung Omnia's pretty stuff. Krrrr.
This week have been a toll.
I shall wait for mine,patiently.....
Hur..
Friday, October 10, 2008; 2:11 PM
This week have been a toll.Monday school,met Nic, town find Syara,shalyn and Sholleh then find mum and sis.
Tuesday, Mind Cafe, Sungei Road, CAMERA, dinner, home.
Wednesday, school meet Edwin, off to Ann Siang road, SLR & DSLR (: , shop, mango sago, home early.
Thursday, syara's place, cook, Istana park, Timber.
Friday, HOME!!.
Summary of my week. Heh.
Picture spam, Livejournal,tonight.
Been so tired and I woke up near 2 today. Dreamt of many.
Still tired but I shall finish my book,awesome (:
Thursday, October 9, 2008; 12:29 AM
Quizzes,E-mails,Design Western Food, Ann Siang st/road with SLR, Mango Sago and what more now?
TAN LIJIN'S BIRTHDAY!!!!! Heh.
Everything's in my livejournal,well,not yet (:
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I was totally very very late today.
Was suppose to meet Edwin at like 11,then I msged him,he called,and so we agree in meeting at 1230,I reach at 1 instead and he was dozing off.
Heh,PaiSeh Bear bear.
You Got Served and How She Move are awesome dance movie.
Off to Ann Siang. Okat we walk DARN LONG and in the end,we took a cab there. -.-
I forgot to charge many many things.
My laptop, my phone and my camera.
So,Edwin lent me his SLR (Learn many today,can't wait to see the pictures) and him,his DSLR.
Had so much fun taking pictures.
Ann Siang road is a pretty lane which I believe hides many secrets behind the doors.
The buildings are old,the doors are mostly old.
Peeking into the window brings you to a modern world. It's almost like magic,to me.
It's a wonderful place,a nice get away.
Footed to Chinatown sometime after Syara got her heels and got Jin a pair of heel. Expensive nice heels.
Had Mango Sago and a little of MacD.
Many disturbing scenes.
Talked about car licence and Syara driving us around. Edwin driving us around in a lorry,imagination going wild. Damn fun.
Bus home with Jin. Talked many and how I wish I'm stay close to my friends.
The rest of the trip didn't bother me much.
Me in my music and book.
I'm very much in love with vampires,well I've always been. Heh. They aren't ugly creatures like what shown in movies and shows,well,except Queen of the Damned.
Only be proven wrong until I see one. Eh,exist anot?
Sex and vegetable= Carrot. Hell,funny. I'm a 98%,don't see the link -.- (I do after some long time.)
Wednesday, October 8, 2008; 11:23 AM
I'm happy (: Cause,HOTMAIL'S WORKING FINE :D :D
Though I still feel heavy inside, I've lighten a workload.
Finally sent out that rather important mail to Mrs Koh.
Art Exhibition's like next friday. I wonder if they're still going to send out invitations.
Minds cafe ytd.
Abi's toenail got chipped off,not much thanks to Sholleh.
Then me spilling the drinks when we're leaving,how nice right,NO!
Off to Sungei Road. Old vintage cameras and all.
Syara and Jin got like 3,okay,at super good price and they are all in good conditions.
Dinner at Bugis, bus home, didn't join the other's to Mustafa.
Sholleh say I look like a small girl,i can pass off as one wearing school uniform in my new haircut.
Benny say that I look different and I became quieter after I cut my hair.
Shalyn agrees with Sholleh that I look younger,like those in Sec 1 & 2. Zomg..
Edwin says I look fiercer than before,which I like. Don't like people getting close to me.
After I reach home,ate,Marcus started a mass convo.
So it's full of nonsense and it's damn funny.
Kind of made my day. Marcus,deyang and jamal. Missing those days in the classroom,doing stupid stuff.
I still have the vids of Theon and I quarreling.haha. Dumb.
I'm suppose to meet Edwin at 11am today.
I woke up at 1045. I was like,DAMN!.
I'm suppose to prepare to go school now,but I' updating,CAUSE....I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WEAR.
OMG OMG OMG.whatever.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008; 10:36 PM
That's your last piece.
It's not my last.
I said,I'm living in lies.
You understand what it means? I can't live honestly to anyone.
Even the ones who bring me into this world.
Newly found friends,you make it sound like I'm mixing with evil people who drag me away from you.
You have friends who wont abandon you its because you and them have the same circle of friends.
They make more friends,you know more.
It's a life circle.
We can see our own flaws,it's only up to us if we want to accept it.
About that trip over to school,I did say,if you're tired,its okay. I said it.
I broke it unsoundly. Nicely put,just because of my new found friends.
I don't know if I should laugh or cry over this now.
For I cried over the earlier one.
I should laugh at my foolishness, for many many of my mistakes I've done that you've pointed out bit by bit.
And also,I've now seen the other side of friendships.
One that I've trusted to have gone long,one that I've honestly cherished.
I never lied to you once.
Afraid that you'll be sad or misunderstand,I told you about my trip to kbox the other time.
For that,a quarrel started.
If I didn care about you when I'm with my friends,I won't have tell you about my whereabouts.
I'm always telling you and your answer will always be,tell me for what.
Friendship....how true can one be?
是時后了，我會學这慢慢放手。
可能，所有的一切吧。
; 11:30 AM
Getting back at you? just because I said,now you know how i felt when you gave me all those.
It's not getting back. It just I got to know how you felt after you wrote it out.
You can say that I'm finding a way out for myself,bloody well,I AM,ARE YOU HAPPY?
Are you happy that you,someone whom i really need disown me.
You know my friends,You can go ard and ask them how much I went through for the friendship.
They have been telling me,it's time to let go.
YOu can't accept me for who I am now.
In poly,social circle is different.
A bestie doesn't mean I need to be there,emotionally I'm there.
I don't need to be there physically.
If you had much trust in me,you wont have do that.
When you and jolene talked,you ask me if I'm afraid that you go back to her.
My reply was,I'm not afraid,cause I trust you.
But it turn out likewise.
I never dump you for my new friends. Dump isn't a suitable word.
You study at woodlands,me? At Tampines.
To and fro is a tiring thing. Many times I want to go,but time just doesn fit.
I know you tried to give me whatever I wanted,thank you for that.
You made my day for many things,I can still rmb every single one of them.
Hence,I didn want more of it go on. So when you ask me what I want the other say,I said,I'll get them myself.
I never oush blames to you ever before,I never did.
I thought I could be the one to help you out from who you were back then.
It turn out,we drifted,you changed to a person whom I don't really like. You wont give a damn to what I think now,cause thats your personality trait.
If I've never been true,I would never respond to whatever you want to know,responses etc.
Have I ever said that sentence?
Even if so,you know what it means?
Putting things across nicely so that you will accept it.
Nothing I've said to you have been across to you. You'll just object.
The trust that you have said,I'll put it across as,I had it,I still have it. It's your's that you've broke.
Forgive and forget. From the start I was never such a person.
And I still have that. If I can forget what had happened,all the many many,I won't feel so miserable now.
I said before,you're someone I won't want to lose.
My bad,my faults,i never reflected.
Whatever you said I never did,I did.
If you think of it that way,I can't do anything.
这樣的我讓你很開心吧，因為我記得你所說的一切一切。
Monday, October 6, 2008; 8:53 PM
So,when I'm not in the mood,I'm at fault?
Talking halfway and say that I'm unhappy?
Everything that you've said,I've tried. Its not as if I didn't know.
And also,thanks for telling me cause,I know,now you know how I felt when you gave me all those.
It's my fault now to all your friend.
You still treat me as a friend,now,I would rather put it across as a tool.
Of what,I can't make my mind up now.
Just because of me being attached last time,you turn your back against me.
When you talk to me about your's,I'm still listening and advising.
How I wish when I say "I don't know" to your questions is a reply to me being out of ideas helping you.
I've never once not care,never once ignored.
But all I got was these.
My life have have turning to the downside.
I've shared my feelings with you but you're always saying I'm me,you're you.
Yes,now I agree we're both different person.
From the time you left me a lurch,we're different.
We can't step on the same stone,we share different views even from the same stone.
And I've also given a clear sign when I say,love is different for different person.
You can blame me for all you want.
But do you know what I was handling when I was talking to you?
It was a emotional roller-coaster.
One friend in a convo cheering me up,another asking me to think hard,another asking me to sort my feelings right.
On the other hand,I'm replying your comments with 'haha',it's not genuine,I don't like the feeling even when you can't see my expression.
There many I can't put across.
If talking to me is such a terrible thing,I'm sorry.
Sunday, October 5, 2008; 4:43 PM
Hotmail's sucky!
I can't delete my mails or read my mails!!!!!! wth wth.
Having impt mails and I can't read them -.-
Island is cool. Nice nice.
I'm hungry now.
On a random side,my dog just stick to me right after she bathed. krrrrrrrr.
Saturday, October 4, 2008; 12:33 PM
New song :D
New addiction (:
Friday, October 3, 2008; 11:20 PM
For once,I didn't regret cutting my hair (:
I love it the way it is now though its short short (:
; 12:36 AM
Yeah! Theon and I just made a pac.haha.
To drop off at Khatib and walk home after Art Exhibition.
I miss miss miss walking home talking to him about personal stuff.
Heh,made my night (:
Thursday, October 2, 2008; 1:10 PM
Another fave song.
A song I wanted to use for..... secret.
Next time it'll be proud.
I want DEMOS!!!!
-@2315
Meals today are awesome,chicken chop(mum's recipe),chilly crab at thomson(?) road :D
Full full,i'm growing fat this holiday.
Eat,sleep and the routine continues.
Amosy just shared with me his exciting trip to HK. Umbrellas,hahahaha.
I'm bored......
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我想，我知道了。
Wednesday, October 1, 2008; 2:18 PM
Selamat Hari Raya!
I woke up damn late today and was shock to see my brother at home.
Usually,he'll be in school.
Then I stone and think and rmb that it's Hari Raya today.
And I was still complaining how noisy it was last night.
Bear bear's going to send me works for blog :D Happy.
Nic have reply my msg. Oh,I woke up with 5 msges. Hahaha.
I'll blog different things in my LiveJournal and Blogger.
-@2315
As much as I try,I can never get the best out of you.
; 12:29 AM
Livejournal acct- http://mahmaymo.livejournal.com
Cranky link,I know.haha. How I came up with it,hahaha,all the mah-goose,may-goose,mon-goose. Heh (:
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当我累了，不知所錯的時后，你在哪里？当我說 ‘不是’ 的時后，你相信嗎？