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Friday, March 28, 2008; 8:10 PM

To Jolene.
yes,i am talking about you. and i'm glad you know about it.
okay,i sound mean now,but at least i know i've made myself clear to you.
I didn block you in my msn. And i mentioned to add me in my blog,but of cos,rmb i stopped using the new acct for a long period of time? i delete much contacts. and of cos,you can guess it,even yours. So its up to you if you want to add me,aite?
And i said remember all the good things,not bad things.It is very tiring hating someone.VERY TIRTING,esp hating someone you really loved once. You know,its like hating but yet wanting to know but still hates to know? you know that sort of feeling? so i rather put you at the back of my head.
I still cant forgive,i dont know why. maybe i just couldn accept to the facts of stuff that happened. and i dont want any apology from you,what for when all have been said. no much more of it can bring the forgiveness,right?
I dont know which of what you're saying is the truth. i cant bring myself to trust you anymore,perhaps you know the reason,perhaps you dont.
Who wont miss each other? i missed you too,BUT only the good stuff,not the bad.
i flare at the moment when ppl speaks of your name. It inflicts more cos i remember every single thing and stuff you did and said. Both good and bad.
If you ask me dont i think it eats you inside. I'll say,i wont know. cos i'm not you,or rather,when did i know the real you inside?
And of cos,ask yourself,did it eat you inside when you did those stuff behind my back. You know,i know much much more. Stuff that i didn expect.
But for sure,i'm always dissapointed in you whenever you do the wrong thing. And you know what i really mean in this. You know what kind of a person i wish you to be. But of cos,i cant ask you to be what i want you to be. All i want is a better you,a better Jolene.
Thats all i wish for (:
If my hatred for you is SO deep,i wont reply your tags when you tagged me. You shld know my personality,right? Or should i doubt it?
Bye.

Thursday, March 27, 2008; 10:52 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY (:
yep,it's dad's birthday today :D i made him a card. i nvr made him one in all my 16 past years.haha. cos i always forget them and rmb them at night.
worst,we dont celebrate birthdays but we celebrated today. hehe,thanks to the clever me (: kakas. *clear throats*
and yep,i'm bombarded again in my blog after not updating for so long,i updated with a bomb. sorry peeps.
afterall,blogs are meant for words and of cos emotions. but its the way you read and interpret them (:
Loves,Mayguss.

; 10:03 PM

SHEESH!!! i'm so freaked up right now,right here.
CANT YOU JUST STAY OUT OF MY STUFF? HUH!?
YOU'RE SUCH A SELFISH PERSON,SO SELF-CENTRED.
if you really want to know things,you can ask ME directly. it's not as if i wont tell. i just hate it when you go through ppl to know stuff.
and YES,I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU!! you know who you are and many can guess about it.
let me tell you,if you dont wish ppl to know about your life,you can selfishly put it in pw. but pls,dont go ard asking. you can tag me.i wont hide from you cos i didn do anything guilty.
you may blame ppl after seeing this,but let me tell you this,BLAME YOURSELF AND NOT OTHERS.
My hatred for you haven gone down and i've been thinking alot,much more and deeper.
You know,life have been very peaceful ever since school ended.i missed so many ppl and things,esp happy moments. But no one dare mention you in front of me,you shld know why.
I hate sneaky things. Just come and ask. it wont even harm you,but it'll harm me. maybe you're smiling to yourself that you're making me miserable with your doings and you know it's because of what?
Its because i only rmb the nice&good you. not those bad memories inflicted. it's because i care but i really dont want to.
I hate it when i care and got to know more stuff. i hate it.
i know you might treat this as nothing,but i tell you,no,i warn you,never ever do that.
you have my e-mail add right here in my blog,you can add me and ask. dont go ard asking.

Friday, March 21, 2008; 7:39 PM

IMLIKEBACKFORCOUNTLESSOFDAYSANDIMLAZYTOUPDATE!!
haha. i doubt ppl have problem reading the starting.haha. i pray not.
I'm back since monday:D night. yea. i receive 4 msges when i touch down. imagine my bag going 'ZzzZzzZzz'.haha.
3 msges for cordy and 1 from mrs koh. contents,i doubt you peeps are interested.
Hongkong is more or less like Singapore except for the weather. of cos there are much comparison to be done.
from the airport to transport to building to roadway to night streets and of cos the people (:
but i'm not going to say anything here. haha. go there and experience.haha.
i have almost late nights there everyday cos of the Ladies Market. a MUST-GO place to shop and walk and experience.
Went to ShenZhen too. it's more improvised there as compared to hongkong.
And and,i went to DISNEYLAND!! i DIDN get to see my huggable Pooh ): but i know that i was much of a little kid when i was at his place for the rides.haha. yes yes,inside the castle. i shall post some pics here,SOME OTHER DAYS. haha. I LOVE THE MERRY-GO-ROUND. its really something dreamy,something loving.hehe. i wish i was there with my lover xD
took pictures with Mickey&Minnie;didn really adore them but they're really cute. then with Donald&Daffy;the ducks are really,extremely cute,esp the butt :x then to Goofy&Pluto;my favourites,haha,seriously cute and they didn want my to go. we were like playing.haha.
went to the castle and watch the fireworks. you know the Waltz Disney castle with a shooting star flying across when it's part of a movie production? its something like that. spectacular and my cam was about to die at that point of time and it died halfways through my phototakings *curses* but nevertheless,i took more than enought. oh oh,i saw Chip&Dale,Buzz LightYear,ToyStory,TIGGER but NO pooh)): but these mentioned are those i didn take picture of.
like i say,hongkong's more or less like singapore,so nothing much to really emphazise. but i too loads of scenery pics:D but there's one this about hongkong,they are way too open. not a common scene in singapore,WHICH IS A GOOD THING,i emphasize GOOD THING,we dont have artistry books and sex tools sold on streets. and it's not one booth,its like a WHOLE stretch of street. i went OMFkG! loudly mentally.
not used to all these.heh.[the Fk in OMFkG means freaking.no valgur pls althought i broke it after i cursed cordy.once or twice.haha]
cordy came by on tuesday:D and nearly crushed my bones.haha. stayed till 6plus since 1plus 2. she love the dwaegi i got for her.haha. and i said some silly things.haha.
chit&chat. saw her Sydney pics and the food are tempting.gahhh!! HAHA.
went out with her ytd to go for some interview and i ended up with stupid nonsense when the place was close. the place is a building with different companies and of cos in dramas you'll see loads of office affairs. so when we couldn open the door,i bent down and i felt air-con but the door's lock,the phone's ringing but no one's picking up and cordy saw light. so i ended up saying rated stuff.woops.hahahahaha. and cordy just refuse to acknowledge me after that but she added on. freaking hilarious.
there's this encounter in the lift.
lift opens.
we walk in together with a lady. upon spying at her docus,we decide to ask her.
cordy:"er,hi."
lady:shocked expression"hi."
cordy:"where're you from?"
lady:gives a wth-bewildered look"Singapore??"
phone rings. shyt,that not what we meant. both of us ended up laughing.haha.
it's about 3weeks more before school starts:D yippieee!!
cant wait for school to start.hahahaha. and i hate friendster msges from ppl i DONT KNOW. are they plain friendless of what? i know friendster are for ppl to make and meet new friends but hell,the friends are suppose to be like ppl you or seen. *curses*
going off now(: i shall post the pics some other time.haha.
Love,Mayguss.

Thursday, March 13, 2008; 5:54 PM

HOOOLAAA!~ IT'S STILL RAINING!! PFFT:/
i'm getting headaches recently,and i dont know why. sheesh!
went to collect my medic report today:D but saddly,i dont know what's my height and weight now!!*squabble* hehe,but i think i've grown taller(:
i didn get to see the x-ray film. it's just a piece of paper printed with information about my lungs. no lumps seen. hehe. i'm thinking of something wired now.
so,i'm so fine now. heading for hk in less than a day:D and i'm almost done with my luaggage(: left with the daily necessities like my toothbrush and facial wash.haha.
i'm so sleepy. oh gosh!
whatever it is,i cant wait for tmr:DD
maybe i'll update tonight? no no,thats too much. LOL!
Loves,Mayguss.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008; 6:44 PM

WAHLAAAA!! I'M BACK:D
i think no one misses me. stupid cordy's still at Sydney. better fly back asap.haha.
but when she's back,i'm still over at HK.haha.
i'm heading for HK in a day plus time? yeah,morning flight.
weather these past few days have been GREAT. so cooling but yet my hair stands okay. It's FEEERRICKINGGG COLDDDD!! haha.
i hope HK will be better *crosses fingers*
Went for my check-up ytd. and waited for like 2 hours plus for everything to end. i tell you,nvr take x-ray. know why!? i felt SO exposed okay. even though the robe was thick. but nevertheless,EXPOSED. ahhhhhh!! yikes!
headed for the library. borrowed 2 books. haven even started on it. i think i got myself wrong books. too long winded. woops:x
it was raining so heavily,so rang up dad to pick my up. okay,i'm bad at transport,really bad. you can as about it through my friend.
slept in the afternoon,what to do? it's such a good weather,giving it a miss is a sin. haha.
and i'm enrolled:D all i have to do is send in the letter to TP. but i'll be doing that tmr since i'm collecting my x-ray tmr. i wonder how my chest looks like,FROM INSIDE. where are you dirty little ones thinking to? haha.
and i'm so going to take a new passport photo. the one i took is unspeakable dumb. the photographer skills aint that good. yikes!! maybe just blame on this stupid face of mine :/
i'm feeling a little sick now ): edited a few stuff from the blog,only the links part. was thinking of creating a new bs but i gave up,totally no mood. haha. i need colours,as in see colours to get inspiration!!
know what,i haven even pack my luggage. wait a minute,is it the correct spelling? luggage? crap,i speak well but i cant spell well.oh my.
whatever it is,i hope i'll be back to update. well,i definately will but when,how will i know? haha.
Love,Mayguss.

Thursday, March 6, 2008; 10:29 PM

CHUPSCHUPS:D
omo,i'm in high spirits today (:
let see,I'VE RECIEVED BOTH OF MY PACKAGE!! yes,both (:
but there's ALOT of things needed to be done. i need to get it done by next week. here comes the hectic part. helth-screen,student pass and school card. then school orientation:D then school starts! 21 April!!
And and Darrell just told me a VERY VERY GOOD NEWS! *pop champange&run ard naked* haha,no no. the naked part is just for instance.haha.OMG!! i'm beaming now.haha.
going out tmr (: wheeee! i still dont know what to wear.haha. and i'm bloated now. pissh.
aite,a short post. as usual.
Love,Mayguss.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008; 10:24 PM

Hellosss!! haha.
I looked back at many of the pictures taken during school days and how i missed them. oh my,i'm school sick,i really am ):
been on holiday for 5months,going on 6. i miss pe!!
but this week is one of the weird week.
ytd a auntie came to buy some stuff. upon handing her the stuff and her giving me the cash,she looked up and look at me and said this,"You are so pretty. How old are you?"
i know i flushed immediately and replied,"haha,i'm 17. thanks." walks off.omo.
and today,mum's friend went. "How come your face keeps getting smaller and smaller?and you getting thinner and thinner. Didn eat is it?"
bewildered."No,i eat almost everything. dont believe ask my mum."
Ahhh! my face getting smaller but she say she dont like it. she prefer the chubby me. omo. haha. i'll faint when i see the younger me.AHAHAHAHA. too unglam.eek!! LOL!.
but for me,its a good news,i've been wanting my face to be smaller. but when i ask cordy,she said No,my face didn become smaller. haha. i guess she cant see the diff cos we meet up too often. haha. but cordy,i can see the diff in you,hohoho...
I want to PAINT PAINT PAINT!! urgh!. splash splash!
haha. enough of my nonsense.haha.
Love,Mayguss.

Monday, March 3, 2008; 11:07 PM

FINALLYIRECEIVEDAACCEPTDECLINEMAIL.WAITISALLICANDO.
People,tell me,am i a goong? i mean dumb? i guess so.
i read the print outs for like 5-6 times and i was still blur about it. whatever it is,i've sent out my letter. i hope i'll receive it within this week.i dont want it to be next week or something cos i'll be busy preparing for hk:D
got the tics today. wheeeee! and my mum was being a little nuts. she ask me to check the weather forcast for hk. and i went 0.o!? now? how to check,weather's unpredictable. pissh.
been chatting with cordelia. CORDY AH!! i'm just saying it for fun. ArabiIYAHHHH~~!! haha. Lets play the game okay? haha.
i cant wait for Friday. wheee,knowing the results of the dustbin. lol
Geezh! i wish for school to start. but hopfully not much of a work load. but i doubt i'll grumble (:
whatever it is,i might update,i might not. what am i talking about. aish. forget it,i'll update when i have stuff.yea.thats it (:
Loves,Mayguss.