When I look back on the last day of this very year, 2012, it will be fast forward.
They say, every fall is a learning.
There are many I should have, and I shouldn't have all year round thinking back to 2010.
But now, I know I won't look back in regrets cause I did it, being selfish and thinking of others.
Thought that asking you to be where we were at would make you feel less lonelier, would make you forget about that jerk. But intentions went wrong.
Messed with the wrong guy that comes back with a revenge that screws the friendship cause what's said and told was so one side.
I took off, I become the one that ditched my girlfriends. But did anyone came looking for me and pull me back?
Don't say you've forgotten cause if you've had, all of these wouldn't have happened. We still have this prick within us all that reminds us of it all.
Everytime when the night creeps in, all these follows.
I spent the new year crying. I should learn to let it all go.
I should grow more guts. I should have said it all when we had our talk.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011; 10:43 PM
Once again, I'm sitting around, waiting for things to happen.
Cause not all matters need me to stick a foot in to meddle with.
Sometimes, when this all happen, why care when they never did at the start?
; 12:48 PM
I'm a conversation ender, not a starter.
How 'bout that? Not good at all.
Monday, December 19, 2011; 2:05 AM
Sometimes, all we have to do is take a little step out and things will change a little.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011; 12:58 AM
I need a hug right now. Even for a minute, from a stranger. Or someone that familiar that I lost not a really long ago.
; 12:07 AM
Tonight, I sent you a mail.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011; 11:43 PM
I think, or rather come to realise that I suck at human relations.
Like, I just don't know how to put words & actions to work together.
Its the worst personality trait anyone can ever have.
Monday, October 10, 2011; 1:21 AM
I'm currently sitting in bed with pain, from an ulcer.
To think having combined ulcer on the lips is excruciating enough, one ulcer under the tongue, side at the side where it brushes pass the teeth when it moved is one unique experience.
I want to die of pain already. Who the hell have ulcer under the damn tongue. ME.
Been going on&on about it for days cause it's really really and i mean, really unbearable. Its pain have extended to my ear and throat. Best ever...... Can't even drink water without pain.
Okay, done ranting. Off to bed and look forward to Friday :3
Thursday, September 15, 2011; 1:47 AM
I just want to live my life like how everyone do.
Minus the bad days and stuff, add on the fun and all the goodness the day brings.
Too bad, I don't have the courage to do so.